I am nervous , I am happy, brimming with expectations. I wish I had all these feelings but strangely I am very subdued and the call that I received more than being a moment of extreme joy ( as I had been eagerly waiting for it to happen for 1.5 years) it just turned out to be just like any other normal happening in y life with no extremities. Does it signify something? I do not have any idea but I think I have become calmer and learned to accept everything with equanimity.
Having a free mind and always being ready for come what may is what I have started believing in of recent.This leaves me with more freedom to concentrate on my present and not worry over future.

So why am I so subdued and mellowed? Where is all the excitement of having achieved something big?
Am I filled with hope? Yes that I definitely am. Sometimes I even have sleepless nights of which I shall grow out.Am I missing out on anything by not being overtly